Doubt is insidious. It lies and insinuates itself into your very belief system. It twists truth just enough to pull the foundation out of your faith so what you once believed seems shallow or baseless.
If you have any doubt about God at all, settle it now. The word of God is His truth. All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness. (2Tim 3;16) Either that is true or not. If you don’t believe it, then you have no basis for believing anything about God.
If you do believe it, then believe it. God is who He says He is. He is the top of the pyramid. No one is higher or more powerful. Period. So why does it seem like He’s not there or doing anything?
Free will. He lets us decide what we will believe. If we trust Him and put our lives in His hands the way He told us to, He will be everything we ask Him to be. But if we doubt, nothing will happen. In fact, very often, if we doubt, the opposite of what we want will happen.
Trust God to be God, because He is. Trust that He loves you wildly, because He does. Get rid of doubt and let your faith take hold of truth and you will see the heavens open for you.