This is life. Life is messy and we will make mistakes, but we learn and we grow. But growth only comes if we learn from our mistakes. We have to be open to hearing what we don’t know and we need to make sure our pride doesn’t block us from learning.
Growing as a Christian is the same way. We will make mistakes, That’s not really as terrible as you think. Unless you are being obstinate about living in sin, you’re probably not going to make mistakes that will blow up the world. God is more interested in your efforts to try to obey. Making the effort and failing is better than making no effort at all.
I love this scripture, I will stand my watch and set myself on the rampart, and watch to see what He will say to me, and what I will answer when I am corrected. (Habakkuk 2:1) Make a determined effort to let God teach you. Be on the watch for His correction. He is a truly loving Father, so His correction will be kind, and it will be right on.
God’s correction may come from the mouth of a friend, so be open to receiving it. We all need guidance and counsel. Getting it from God is the best way to learn. Repent if you need to, and thank Him for showing you what you need to know.