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Thinking Big

I have two thoughts in my head right now. First, I’m going to the Mt Hermon Writer’s Conference a the end of March and I’m totally stoked about it. I’ve got a novel that’s nearly done that I’ll be pitching to an editor and getting feedback on. I really love this book and I expect it to do well, I just have to be patient to see how that happens. I might get feedback that will send me back to do more work, but that’s ok. I want it to be great. I just can’t help glancing at the calendar and feeling nervous excitement – did I do everything I could to get it ready for submission? There are two sections that need more work, so guess what I’ll be doing today.

Second, I just love reading Isaiah. In 6:1, he says, “I saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lifted up, and the train of His robe filled the temple” NKJV.  The King James Version says, “His train fills the temple.” I always wondered what that meant so reading the New King James made more sense, the train of His robe. Wow, that’s a big robe! Then suddenly (don’t you love the suddenlies?) I thought of Isaiah 61:3, “To console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness.” Hmm, garment of praise – His robe fills the temple. I know! I know! Our praise is His garment. Our praise fills His temple. Sweet!

When I feel Heaven smiling at my baby steps, I begin to think big thoughts. I believe in the gift He has given me. I know I will write important books and touch lives. Last night I had the thought of being asked to the White House,  just a random thought. This morning on CNN, I looked up to a shot of the White House and a story of someone being asked to a special dinner there. Some day… Yep, I’m thinking big and praising big.

Finding My Peace, My Choice

So the curve balls come at me when I’m not looking and I get knocked in the head. It takes me a while to stumble around and find peace again. I haven’t always been very good at that. Once I was nearly hospitalized because I allowed stress to almost kill me. I am not going back there. Ten years ago, I found a verse, well, several. I bookmarked them and read them over and over again now. Finding my peace is a lot easier.

For some reason, Isaiah speaks to me. “Therefore, the Lord will wait, that He may be gracious to you; And therefore He will be exalted, that He may have mercy on you. For the Lord is a  God of justice; Blessed are all those who wait on Him.” v. 30:18. When I wonder why in the world have my prayers not been answered, I go back and read. Oh, it’s because God is being gracious to me. It’s His kindness to not jump when I demand. He wants better for me than I do, so He will move in God time.

Then I wonder, well, what exactly should I be doing? And He says, “Your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, ‘This is the way, walk in it,’ Whenever you turn to the right hand or whenever you turn to the left” v 30:21. Oh, how I wish I heard an out loud voice telling me that, but I do hear it in my spirit, the urging on, the encouragement to keep going. He created a destiny for me and He wants to see me walking in it. Nothing could be easier, but there is a condition: I have to go to Him. If I turn my back on all that I know to be true, He’ll sadly let me leave. If I keep saying I’ll spend time with Him, but never do, He’ll wait patiently, and all the good things He wants to do for me wait as well. Totally up to me.  I guess it’s not so odd that writing comes so much easier when I’m in peace. Go figure.

I’m back to reading Isaiah again. It is nourishment, I feel stronger. After a while, I hope to walk in Psalm 32:8, “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with my eye.” I’m not there yet, but I will be.

Those Curve Balls Can Hurt!

There are times in life when we just get blindsided. We see the ball coming at us, but it looks like it’s going to miss, then the damn thing curves. Sometimes we can see it coming but it’s just too fast to get out of the way. Then there are times when we’re looking at the pretty butterfly and Wham! No one told us to duck. It hurts, a lot. Whether it’s physical or emotional, it hurts.

We lay on the ground trying to catch our breath and wonder what hit us. Then we crawl to our knees and start picking up the bits. We think, well I’m not working on that kid’s story now! That’s probably a good idea, or not. That pain you feel in your chest every time you draw a breath, that’s the real thing. And you know what’s missing from your writing? Some truth. Even if you’re scraping out gerble, if it comes out of that pain, there’s truth in there and you can draw from that later on.

Even kids understand pain and are not afraid to read about it. They can relate to loss. They know what it feels like. Don’t assume that you have to sugar coat it for them. There’s something to be said for the suffering artist. No one wants to be bludgeoned over the head with angst, but writing a true expression of emotion communicates directly to the reader. And it can be quite cathartic. Who needs therapy! Be a writer.

You Can’t Do It Alone

I suppose this applies to people working in just about any field, but I’m working on being a writer so this is how I’ll talk about it. You can’t do it alone. Yeah, the writing part, probably should be doing that alone, but even then you need help. How do you get better if you don’t get input from other people? Beginner, intermediate, or master classes are always a good idea. Feedback on your writing will make you a better writer, just don’t wear your feelings on your sleeve. If you need improvement, it’s not a personal put-down. It’s just what it is. Let other people help.

Resource help can come from classes, online forums, or books. (Thank you Christopher and Allison, I’m reading through my gift and enjoying it!) Bone up on the basics. I’ve read a lot of poorly punctuated writing lately and that hurts the work. Post your work somewhere where you’ll get safe feedback and be ready for what you get. Don’t assume the worst, it’s a wonderful feeling when people you don’t know have good things to say about your writing.

And what do you do when you’ve worked that piece to death and it’s ready for the world? Big decision time. Find an agent, start shooting out submissions, print it yourself? You have to talk to people. Find out the pros and cons about all your options. You could be walking away from the perfect scenario by not asking. Find someone you trust to bounce business questions off of. Have someone, preferably a lawyer or someone well versed in legalese, read through contracts with you. Get feedback on pricing, distribution, and marketing. You’re not just a writer now, you’re an industry. Yes, we all long for the days of publishing companies doing it all, but we have to put our glasses back on and get to work.

It’s just amazing how many people we depend upon along the way. Some come to us as gifts from God, others we have to search out. It takes a village, apparently. I’m so grateful for all the people I know I can go to for help and direction. In the end, the decisions are mine, but having good counsel takes a load of pressure off my little brain. I’m the first one to admit that I can’t do it alone.

The Good Stuff Can Stay, The Rest Can Stay Too

I have been cleaning house, online. Too many stupid files cluttering up unused folders. I like getting rid of stuff that doesn’t make sense to hold on to. In the process, I found several articles that I wrote some time ago that I posted to Faith Writers. I also found starts to several pieces that want to be much longer but somehow fell off the radar and were forgotten. One or two weren’t too bad, others, not so much.

It’s easy to delete an old file if it’s just information about stuff that doesn’t matter anymore. But things that I wrote as fiction, good or bad, I feel obligated to hold on to. I’m not sure why. No one told me I had to hold on to everything. I didn’t sign anything promising to. Something in the back of my head says that it’s archive. “Archive”, now that’s impressive. Much better than “Badly Written and Forgotten”. OK, it’s not all badly written, some of it is quite nice, but there’s some kind of honesty about holding on to the growth path. Not that I everything I write today is fabulous, but it’s interesting to look back at where I’ve been. And I like discovering something very good that I had forgotten completely. It’s like reading it for the first time and finding it pleasing. I want to look around for someone and point my computer, “Can you belive I wrote that!” Anyone? Anyone?

In the end, unless I’m very impressed with an old half-finished story, it probably will remain half-finished. And when I’m dead and gone and historians are excavating my “Archives” and shuttering at what came from my head, I won’t care.

I Heart Bookmarks

It occurred to me recently that I have books in every room of my house, except the “garage” room. I gave away nearly half my books about ten years ago and have slowly replaced them with a different set of books. My old fiction reading has morphed into non-fiction reading in just about every subject under the sun. I have stacks of cookbooks in the kitchen, dining, and living rooms. I have books in the bathroom and bedrooms—books that I have read, nearly read or plan to read. I have several books that I read concurrently. It’s a problem doing that because once I browse a bookstore and bring home something that looks too good to wait for, I immediately forget about the three half read books in various locations. It’s a challenge for non-fictions writers out there. If the book is very compelling, I’ll read it straight through and actually carry it from room to room with me.

Each new book is an invitation to learn and experience something new and wonderful, therefore, it deserves to be approached and handled with careful planning. Dust jackets must maintain their pristine sharpness. Corners are only bent back in cookbooks to flag promising recipes. But most importantly, the proper bookmark must be selected for use.

I have bookmarks from my youth that I still use. One that was perferated from a birthday card so long ago I forget when I got it. I collect them everywhere—NASA, author lectures, trade shows, and ever book store I go into. Some are homemade, some are slick, some have pithy author quotes,  cheerful pictures, and  scripture verses. The variety is essential because each book needs the appropriate bookmark to use with it. Any book on astronomy, of course, needs the NASA marker. Histories or autobiographies do well with the homemade or scripture verse markers. Very academic books need a bookstore marker. Cookbooks, however, are the most neglected. My haste to read through cookbooks usually leaves my choice of marker sadly unprepared. Sales slips, business cards or sticky notes very often find themselves permanently embedded in my cookbooks. I find that not to be a bad thing, despite my finicky need to use better markers for other books. I like finding old sales slips to remind myself where I found my treasures. Unfortunately, if I use a business card, I’ll never again remember where I got it or who it belonged to.

Bookmarks aren’t the only things I stuff into books. As a child, I would pull out large, old dusty tomes from the bookshelf and press wild flowers between wax paper. I still have some of those old children’s Bible books with flat, faded lupins pressed long ago. In my days working for a rare book dealer, I brought home fascinating things put into books and forgotten when collections were brought to the shop to be sold—religious cards, postcards, small fashion plates. Once while cataloging a Steinbeck collection, I found a postcard Steinbeck wrote to his mother about a scene he later included in one of his books. That one I did not get to keep.

 The problem is, with my chaotic reading habits, most of my best bookmarks are stuck into books I may never finish, yet I might!, until I finally succumb to the decision that if I haven’t finally read the book already, I probably never will and the bookmark may be reused elsewhere. There’s always a slight pang of regret when the marker is pulled from the pages of an undeserving book, a book that should have been better, a book that should have been read.

Bookmarks serve such a useful purpose in keeping us on track through our reading, but they also act as placeholders of memories and emotions. There’s something essentially satisfying about choosing just the right bookmark for a new, crisp book with enormous entertainment and educational value. Never throw out a good bookmark. It could be your friend for life.

Hoping It Won’t Be Work

Hope. It’s a new year and new year’s always inspire hope for the future. It does sound a bit like wishing for world peace, but hope is alive and well, if we dare to believe. I have so much to hope for. I have personal hopes and hopes for other people. I have hopes based on promises from God and hopes I want Him to touch.

When I think of those hopes, it makes me think of dancing. Not just dancing, dancing, but ballet. I remember, back in the day, when I took ballet. The teacher would say, “You have a string tied to your wrist. At the other end of the string is a balloon, lifting your wrist light as air.” We would move our arms through first, second, third and fourth positions, trying very hard to have balloons tied to our wrists. Ninety-nine per cent of the time we were tied to anvils not balloons. The truth is, it was very hard to move that “effortlessly”, especially when equal concentration had to be made to moving our feet at the same time.

My point is that hope sounds wonderful and fluffy, but it comes with a good deal of hard work. We look forward to open doors to part before us, but it is our feet that move us through them. You can’t move across the floor with grace without putting in hours of practice to develop it. Hope is only hopeful when we put ourselves in position to grab it. And when there’s nothing in the world that we can do, we position our hearts to expect what we need. That takes work. Hope is not trusting that a fairy godmother will show up to take us out of our misery. Real hope is based on reality. Do you hope to be a great writer? Then work your craft. Do you hope to lose thirty pounds? Then knock off the cookies and go walk.

Hope is not a band-aid, it’s the carrot to get us working toward our own goals. I have a lot to hope for this year. That means I have a lot to do. The rest is up to God to bless. I’m so thankful that He puts those hopes in me because He does like to bless.

Things I Should Have Done By The Time I’m 80

This is just for the archives. You know, the file you go through and look at all the bizarre ideas you had back in the day, before this happened and that happened and all those ideas went out the window? Not exactly a bucket list, but stuff I’d like to see happen. When I first thought about it, I thought it was a little narcissistic, but come on, every writer wants her books to go global, every actor wants the gold statue, and every IT guy wants the robot award.

So here goes: Nobel Prize for Literature. That’s it. I figure I should be able to knock that off by the time I’m 80. Maybe twice, I’m not that old. Do they give more than one to the same person? Alright, I’ll break ground. I mean seriously, if you’re going to do something, shoot for works. Why compromise and settle for the Pulitzer? I’ll take one of those too, thank you very much. If you’re talking hobbies, I understand not having high falutin goals, but if this is it, if this is what you wake up to do everyday, baby do it! And be good at it. Writer, thy name is Excellence. Aren’t you just a little sick of drivel? We’re so used to being polite that we’ve accepted mediocrity as the norm. I’m not just talking about writing either. I mean everywhere. It’s so wonderful to see something done well. It’s the amen to a holy sunset. So worth it.

Write on my friends, and write well. I’ll see you in Stockholm.

When Words Have Oomph!

The Word of God is the most powerful force in the universe. He spoke creation into existence and it hasn’t stopped. He made man in His image and breathed life into him—the breath of His Word. Whether we know it or not, our words have a force of power to them as well. “Death and life are in the power of the tongue…” (Proverbs 18:21).

Stick and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me. Not so. Words can speak life or death, spoken or written. God has given us something of Himself, the power to speak and force that goes with it. As writers, we have to use that gift honorably. When we write, we hope that our work will go out to generations. What will we put in those open, innocent hands? Words of life, or death? Our brains are funny things. When we watch movies or read a book, our brain is tricked into believing that the entertainment is real. We feel fear, surprise, anguish. That’s why we love stories. We like embracing experiences we wouldn’t otherwise encounter. So will we give our readers food for life or watery drivel? Use the power of those words! You will effect a genre of readers far more than you know.

Write with a purpose. Be like the servant who doubled his talents, not like the one who buried it in fear. Your pen (or laptop) is your magic wand. Use it wisely, but use it.