One of the many wonderful aspects of salvation in the kingdom is how kind God is. Our humanity does not surprise Him. Before we came to Him, our lifestyles were not honorable, even if we tried to be “good”. Any effort on our part that does not include repentance and forgiveness of sins is all about us and not God. But God is not bothered by that. He made us, so He knows exactly what to expect from us.
No matter how bad your life was before you met Jesus, you are His beloved. When you confess your sins to Him, He forgives and forgets. You may walk out the consequences of your actions, but He does not hold you to blame. For instance, if you killed someone, you would be forgiven, but still carry out a prison sentence.
And in God’s amazing love is the covering He puts over us to protect us from our own past. He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge. (Ps 91:4)
Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed; neither be disgraced, for you will not be put to shame; for you will forget the shame of your youth. (Isa 54:4)
God only looks at the renewed person He made of you, and so should you. Don’t be afraid of you past coming back to haunt you. If you live under His wings, you’re protected from your own self.